from nie

Thursday, March 7, 2019

fly

Dream

/drēm/

noun

2. a cherished aspiration, ambition, or ideal

Everyone has dreams. To be this, to be that. To achieve this, achieve that. I have some of those too. But they pale to nothing in comparison with my lifelong dream. A real d r e a m. To fly.

My sister showed me this video today. I am not a bit ashamed to say that I cried watching them float in the celestial sky, away from people's thoughts and impressions and control. I suggest you mute the video and play this melody as you watch.

the melody

Welcoming March

March is a beautiful month. Not only are the blossoms beginning to blink their eyes against the sun, but the birds are speaking to one another, passing rumors that spring is coming on the wind. And green returns. I love green. Almost as much as I love blue. There is also St. Patrick's day. Irish culture is something I love to learn about.
But, most importantly, Lent began on March 6th.

For The Love Of

I used to participate in Lent every year. I looked forward to it, in fact. Anything that is meant to better me as a person and help me to shed habits and realize what is truly important, is fascinating and almost addictive to me.
This year will be the first time I have participated in Lent in a long time. I am excited and a little ashamed that I missed so many opportunities to participate before.

My choice for Lent is to stop wasting money. For the entirety of this holiday, I shall only purchase what I need. Need. Not want. It is going to be difficult. I have very bad spending habits, I'm ashamed to say. But I am, nevertheless, very excited. I want to be a better person. I want to be the absolute best version of myself.

That means no more junk food runs to the store. No more renting endless movies. No more buying shirts I will never wear on an impulse. And it means standing in the kitchen for longer than it takes to microwave vegan macaroni and making better choices for my budget and my health.

It has been one day, and I already feel better. I prayed more intentionally last night. And though I only have twenty dollars in my account, I know that I won't waste a penny of it.

M.