impressions: sadly, free.

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“And thus ever by day and night, under the sun and under the stars, climbing the dusty hills and toiling along the weary plains, journeying by land and journeying by sea, coming and going so strangely, to meet and to act and react on one another, move all we restless travellers through the pilgrimage of life.” ― Charles Dickens, Little Dorrit

M.

journal no. 2 : lessons in living

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 I have learned a lesson over these past few months since I moved out with my sister. Actually, I have learned several lessons, but this is the most recent. And it is... *drumrollllllllLLLLLL*

 If I want a valuable life, one that I am happy to live, I must add value to my life. No one else will do this for me. I will not get handed magical experiences. I will not be given a list of life lessons. I will not be rewarded for work I do not do, or risks I do not take. But every day, every day, God gives me the opportunity, and the free will, to add value to my life.

And that is something in and of itself, to be excited about!

So, if you are unhappy with what consumes your life, if you feel controlled by your circumstances, or if you believe that nothing good or magical or special ever happens to you, perhaps you too need to be awakened to all of the endless possibilities, as I have been. I am sure this realization of mine will be challenged. I will compare my life to other people's lives. I will grow weary of work and school. I will probably want to give up, because giving up always seems like the answer. But I truly believe I have learned something that has the potential to be life-changing. 

After all, who knows what miracles can happen when you believe.



M.

sail away

Listen to Benedictus

Watching this was a lot like what I imagine meditation to be. I have to imagine it because I can never calm my mind down enough to truly meditate. I am always thinking frantically and worrying. My mind won't stop whispering and my brows are stuck in a furrow. But this was transcendent. You cannot tell where the sea ends and the sky begins. It feels as if you are sailing through nebulas. God's world is the epitome of beauty. Its simplicity is splendor, its quiet is mighty, and its chaos is order.

M.

From... John Keats