baptism of truth

Mo · Baptism Of Truth

the color of flowers

 this is a little piano song I wrote. There is a lot of background noise but that is what happens when you leave your phone on the piano and the door open to the living room and don’t re-record because you were feeling each note on the first take. It is about lost dreams. And how everything in them is more beautiful and  more vibrant, even the color of the flowers. 

Mo · The Color of Flowers

night play

sitting in my covers,

moonlight wakes me up,

and whispers to the wonder,

to skip and come and talk

the sparkles settle in,

the dragons chase the faye,

and snowflakes melt on window,

anxious to join the play

- miranda

what now?

 read + searching for purpose + first. 

Hi. In my last check in post I talked about where I am now after being thrown about in some waves of life. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking, listening, and dreaming. I haven’t figured everything out but I do have a very loose one year plan forming. 

I started with my intentions by asking myself, who am I and what do I want from my life? 

Those questions aren’t very easy to answer. And I went a very long time ignoring them. Just following others or following whatever path promised stability. But I want to take as long as I need to to figure out the answers. So, this coming year will be a year of listening to God, of reflection, and of achieving balance. 

I have very solid essentials I need to figure out, like where I’m going to live (lol what can you do) & getting a new job (see below). But I also want to work on my relationship with God, understand myself better, improve my mindset, and take care of myself physically. 

Steps I’m taking to achieve these goals are...

+go back to church

+eat clean & cook at home 

+stress manage with MaGicAL baths (seriously I love baths) & consistent yoga

+complete Bethany Hamilton’s unstoppable course for finding your purpose & maybe more of her courses

I’ve learned a lot this past year and I understand now that I want a life that isn’t typically lived. But that’s okay. I get to grow and laugh and cry and work towards something amazing with God’s guidance. Instead of following others’ footsteps with my head hung low, I want to run on the mountain sides and explore the unknown. I hereby dub my journey to a beautiful life, “the unknown” because I have absolutely no clue what I’m doing : ) (UPDATE: I took the page down for a bit. I may redesign/reaffirm my plans later on)

I made a page to outline my year long plan & there I will update every time I accomplish a goal or move on to a new section → the unknown (doesn't exist anymore haha). 

Speaking of which, I start a new job this Friday. So, I can check that off of my list which I am very happy about and extremely thankful for. It isn’t anything special or extraordinary, I’ll just be making coffee for people. But it is what I need to challenge myself and to start my journey. I have several goals I want to achieve for this job in particular, but I’m saving those for a separate post about mindset. 

Now, if you’ll excuse me I need to shop for cardboard boxes to live in. I hear the cost is reasonable and they’re quite warm.